Seriously -when’s the last time you stretched? Comfy in your complacency? Yeah, me too. Comes with age? Gosh I hope not. What is different about the close of this year? For whatever reason, I’ve done (or begun) a few things that terrify me in the last two days, and since it seems to be a theme, I’ll appear holier than thou by saying it was planned and I came through. Ha ha. So fake.
I finally opened a 401K for my business; I feel like a grown up. And sure, you could say I should have done it years ago (anticipated or perceived criticism being one reason we avoid doing what we should) and truth be told, all I did was sign the papers. Mr. Fashion-Incubator (who is off work for 2 weeks) did all of the work. That’s a lesson too—get help with your terrifyingness.
A second terror inducing thing I’ve done is launch a retail pattern line. The official announcement will be the subject of today’s second post. I had a retail pattern line years ago when I first opened my business. It was an abysmal failure. I should qualify that; sales exceeded my wildest short term expectations and I couldn’t scale to meet demand—are you starting to understand why I preach as I do? Been there, done that. In my opinion, if you have a lick of sense, you should expect tepid response and you wouldn’t be disappointed, undermanned or under capitalized. But anyway, I’m hitting the reset on that one. I’m not sure what this pattern line’s theme will be about except that it is whatever I want to put out (although I would be delirious with joy with your suggestions) and that it will studiously avoid the lowest common denominator. No $1.99 patterns or easy ones either. All of my patterns will be hard* and or designed for folks with an IQ of 110+. It’s called Savant Patterns. Re: the name; horrors if I appear to join the cult of chest thumping, self exaltation self marketers, I figure I can use the term legitimately having been diagnosed with autism nearly 15 years ago. I may as well get something out of it.
So how does fear work into that? Insecurity I guess. People are hypercritical out there, MSGs (Mean Sewing Girls) live to criticize and I make a great target. People expect perfection from me if for no other reason than that I expect it from me too. So what will I do differently? I’m not sure yet, it is evolving. There is a rigor to how I do things that is probably not obvious so I aspire to make it so. For example, I keep a bugs list for every style to track problems and issue corrections. It is possible that other retail lines do the same but I’m not privy to it. [Before I forget, anyone will be permitted to use these for manufacturing and no royalties. Yay me.]
But I digress. The summary is that I’m coming off of a marathon work schedule—this is our busiest time of year in the industry so I haven’t been posting much—and even though I took a few days off at Christmas (Mr. F-I disagrees that I did), I’m only starting to come down now. After I write post #2, I’ll pad into the house and warm up some leftovers for dinner and we’ll drink a bottle of wine we’ve saved for a special occasion. Then we’ll probably watch a DVD; DH got Firefly and the first season of Games of Thrones for Christmas. Such is excitement in our part of the world. When I was younger, this would have rankled. I had a set of tails and fish net hose I wore dancing every New Year -that was before I had The Boy. Being older now, it is good. No one close to me is gravely ill. We are all (as far as we know) healthy. We have gainful employment. We have so much to be grateful for. I sincerely hope and wish for you, similar peace and contentment for you and your family as we move into the new year.
PS. Don’t forget to plan to do something terrifying in 2014. Options are boundless —whatever will you do?